I'm reading a book by K.P. Yohannan called Revolution in World Missions. Between this book, and our two current family read alouds - Teddy's Button (from Lamplighter) and David Livingstone (from YWAM), I'm feeling a welcome shift in my own perspective. How easy it is for me to allow busyness to take my eyes off the goal - to love my brothers and sisters in Christ and be filled with a heart of love for the lost.
I want so much to be so filled with God's love that I draw others into His embrace because they experience rivers of living water flowing from within me. I want my focus to be so outward, on the people whom God places in my path - and not on my plans, activities, hopes, schedule, etc...I just want to live for God alone.
I have found in my own life that if I'm lacking peace. If I have any area, any situation, any relationship, anything that takes peace from me - it's my own lack of submission to God. It's my own need to be in control, my need to have things work out nicely for me or my family. When my husband's job is stressful, I so need to remember that God has a plan in all of this and pray "Oh, My Lord, what is it that You would have me to learn, know, think about all of this? Show me how to respond to my husband. Show me how to be You to him." When my children are acting up, "Lord give me your words to train their hearts, to speak into their lives. Let me not react in my own anger - for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires, especially not in my children." Oh, Lord that I may love with your supernatural love!
I want to keep my heart, every moment of every day focused on living Christ's life through me - and not my own life, my own plans, my own dreams - but in all things be abandonly submitted to my Lord - to be so Christ focused that my heart overflows with Him to all that I know and see.
I'm often consulted on issues that people have. And so often, I find that my Christian sisters are harboring bitterness, insults and injuries towards their fellow sisters. I am careful with my words, but I just so want to urge them to give up their rights to be angry, give up their rights to be treated fairly, give up their rights to have it work out well for them, submit to God - allow that God is in control of every circumstance and if you allow Him to fill you with His love for others - you will find that peace that surpasses understanding that we so need in our daily lives.
Love. God tells us that His greatest comandment is to love Him - then He turns around and say that the second is to love others. But then he says that we show our love for him by obeying his command to love others. So, in order to really love God - we must love others. I'll blog more on that circular reasoning from John 14, I believe it is.
God is so good. How intensely we know that in our hearts when our hearts are focused on Him, and on loving others through His love.